Heart check

The World Race is on the forefront of every thought, it’s always on my mind in one way or another. It’s there. Yet it also, at this point, feels like a dream. Like one of those really, really good dreams where you don’t want to wake up. It’s like I can almost reach it, almost taste it, almost feel it, but I’m not getting any closer to it. Which in reality, isn’t true, because every day I’m creeping closer and closer to that date when I’ll step foot on a plane that will take me across the ocean, into country after country, month after month, for almost an entire year.
I’m at a good place right now. I haven’t really even been fundraising for a whole month yet and already I’m far past my goal for where I should be right now. Which is awesome, awesome, awesome!!!! I have the best supporters, friends, and family behind me!
But I’ve found myself needing to do a serious heart check. I know I’m going to get addicted to checking my support account — it’s super cool to see another name added to the list of financial supporters, to have that “WOW” moment hit me. Wow, that person just supported me. It’s almost euphoric. It’s so hard to explain. It’s amazing. It’s energizing. It’s exciting to know that people are thinking of me, praying for me, getting behind me and joining me on this grand adventure.

From jesseischens.theworldrace.org

But then the heart check comes in. Because I also find myself on the other side of the spectrum, slightly freaking out at the amount of money still to be raised. But…..it’s not close to nearly enough. How am I ever going to make it???  And I don’t want to think like that. I can’t help it sometimes, but that’s where I need to re-think and re-focus.

I’m so thankful for God. I don’t know how I would live without Jesus in my life. I know deep within me that He’s got this all planned out. He knows exactly who will give and how I will raise all of the money, because it’s all Him and His doing, not mine. It’s all about Him. And I keep having to re-focus on that, over and over and over again. It’s really hard, I’m not gonna lie.

I’m amazed by all of you. Thank you to those who have given so far. Thank you to those who will give.

Thank you to all of you for your prayers. This is a very humbling, challenging, growing experience for me. Thank you for following God’s leading in joining with me in this.

I treasure you!

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