So many times I imagine what I’ll be doing for the next 11 months, and so often I picture myself holding a beautiful child in my arms and looking deep into their wide eyes and telling them about how much Jesus loves them.
That image is what keeps me going when I feel like I don’t want to keep getting ready, I’m tired of this “going” process, it’s too hard, it hurts too much, it’s too stressful. It’s also when I hear the whisper of Jesus in my ear, telling me He’s always with me, He’ll never leave me.
Ah, Lord, I know.
I’m so grateful for the passions and dreams He’s placed in my heart, and for this simple desire just to love on these precious kids all over the world.
I have no idea what it’s going to look like. No idea at all.
It doesn’t matter.
Those kids, those precious little ones, matter so much to Jesus.
It’s why He’s SO passionate about the widows and the orphans.
Those who can’t help themselves.
I want to be passionate about those He’s passionate about.
I want to love those who need His love.
Right now I have 1 more day left of work.
It’s SO weird.
It’s SO hard.
I hate goodbyes, so I’ve turned them into “see you laters.”
It’s just one of those things that is always difficult, and I’m emotionally done.
I don’t want to say goodbye…my workplace and my coworkers have been an incredible blessing in my life.
It’s really crazy to know that tomorrow I’m walking out those doors and not coming back. While I know I’ll see many of them again and that we’ll keep in touch, I also know that there are many who I won’t see again.
It’s why I don’t like goodbyes.
These wonderful people have been a part of my life for these past 4.5+ years.
They’re a part of my heart, my memories, my experience.
It’s been one of the best places to work.
I will greatly miss it.
Goodbyes are something I’ll be doing for the rest of my life.
It doesn’t make it easier, though.
But I know this is a necessary part of this next step.
It’s a step of faith.
Lord, I know You’ve called me, and I’m stepping out in faith that You’ve got this, and that Your plan is far greater and better than I could ever imagine.
To my coworkers, you are so loved.
I’ve been so blessed to have you in my life.
Please follow me and keep in touch.
This road is HARD.
I’m so tired and emotionally done right now.
But I know this is right.
Keep moving forward.
God’s got this.
I know it’ll be worth it.
I’m thanking God for that whisper right now…hanging onto it and trusting it.
Sidenote, this is me and my co-worker Nina about to make a run for it out from the office into torrential rain to our cars…it didn’t work very well…we got soaked. But it is a pretty funny memory! 😛