Everyone who knows me knows that I love my coffee. 🙂
Recently I discovered a cute little Irish coffee shop in St. Paul called Claddagh Coffee. It has a fun, relaxing, artistic vibe and each drink is handcrafted beautifully. This stuff gets me excited. I’ve always wanted to learn how to do latte art, and I REALLY love my coffee, so finding this little treasure has been a highlight of my week! I’ve already been here twice in 1 week. I CAN’T go back…that would be really horrible, haha, but I want to! 🙂
[this is my coffee] 🙂
So last night, I sat at Claddaghs, sipping my beautiful mocha latte, soaking in the ambiance, and settled in to soak up some missions goodness. Sometimes I just need to sit and think, or sit and read, and having coffee is one of the little things that I really enjoy. I know it’s not necessary, but it warms my soul, especially when it’s coupled with good God time.
As I read the first couple chapters, I could hear so much of what I already know confirmed and revirberated within my soul. It was wonderful on so many levels because I’ve caught myself feeling really low lately, without a distinct purpose, wondering if I’m really where I’m supposed to be, just frustrated with a bunch of different things, hurting, sad, just down in general. It’s been quite the up and down week for me, with very high peaks and very low lows, which frustrates me because it’s not a normal thing for me and so I’ve found myself questioning my whole existence and real purpose.
There have been a lot of lies thrown at me. Like I’m not good enough, I don’t really love that well, I’m boring, I don’t have a purpose, and I’ll never get out of this “rut” that I’m in. I’ve felt desperate to move out of where I am. Desperate for the things that are planned for the future to happen now.
And that’s what I’ve felt like doing this week. I just want to bang my head against a wall, beat some sense into myself, and get myself back on track. I hate feeling sad and listless, and I wish there was a magic way to not feel that way. It hurts. Especially when it’s all a confuddled mess and you’re not sure why exactly you feel this way, it’s just the result of everything at the moment, and you just want out.