noun: the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another.
The beginning of a yearning…
…a yearning that burns, leaps at the thought of the World Race.
Oh to be there again.
Memories of ages past. No, not ages, just years…but it feels like ages.
Ages gone; ages home.
Time flies, yet inches along.
When I returned from the World Race, I thought I’d never want to go again.
I was tired. No, exhausted. Longing for the embrace of family and all familiar things.
But little did I know I would jump right back home into the familiar, but soon into transition. Changes came quickly, and I was swept along in the current. A beautiful, fast-moving, white-water rapids current, splashing me rudely in the face one minute and rushing over me and calming my fears in another.
I was left with little time to process. Or maybe I am a terrible processor. It takes me forever to figure out what I learned from something. Maybe this is a good thing. Maybe this is normal.
I’m still processing the World Race and feel like I will continue to do so for a very long time. I think, that this is ok.
Change comes for all of us. Transition is inevitable.
>>Fast forward to a year after I returned home, and I’m longing for it all over again. The World Race.
Pain is what grows us, challenges us, changes us.
Pressure cooker, that was the World Race. We hate it and we love it.
Oh…to be that close to the Lord again. Oh to feel His presence with every breath, every step.
He is still here. Oh so close. Right here.
Just, He feels different.
Grown closer, yet feels farther.
As if that is possible.
I have thought and thought about how these past 2 years have gone since I left for the World Race.
I began a life of transition that has never stopped. Oh how my life has sped through many twists and turns since September 2012.
I should be used to transition by now, but the thing about transition is that each new one brings new challenges. You can get used to moving but constant change brings uncertainty. It requires great trust in the Lord.
These are transitional years, but these are defining years.
I am learning who I am–who He has made me to be. This is EXCITING, AMAZING, THRILLING, TERRIFYING, WONDERFUL.
Life as I know it now, is not how I thought it would be.
This is okay.
I trust the Lord. He is faithful.
He provided an amazing job and a place to live.
He is making a way for my family.
He will lead us and guide us.
He hears the longing of my heart. He knows it better than I even do.
And so I trust Him with my future and the future transitions.
All of the growth and challenge and pain, that will bring more growth and challenges and delights and failures and laughter and hugs and tears and struggles and LIFE, which causes me to go back onto my knees in prayer, giving thanks to my Father for His GOOD gifts, He has given me life and breath and these struggles are momentary.
Our lives are meant to be lived for our King.
I will keep lifting my eyes to Him. Transition means stepping closer to Him.
Focusing my eyes on the Giver of Life.
I trust in the most Trustworthy One. He is my Faithful Guide.
I see these transitions continuing, and though I know it won’t be easy, I’m not worried or afraid.
Instead I am confident in what my Savior will do, in the plans He has for my life.
Transitions require us to move, to take a step, to ACT, to obey.
Transitions move us closer to Him, because they shake us from comfort.
He didn’t say it would be easy, but He said He’d be right here with us. That’s a promise I’m holding onto.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
I was young and now I am old,
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
They are always generous and lend freely;
their children will be a blessing.
Turn from evil and do good;
then you will dwell in the land forever.
For the Lord loves the just
and will not forsake his faithful ones.